The Glory

There is something every single day that reminds me of her. I mean every single day. What an impact she had on my life. Tomorrow she will have been gone one full year. I have heard so many people say time makes it easier. Time has made it harder for me. I think because I only saw her 3 to 4 times a year. For a long time it felt like I just had not been back to visit in awhile. The more time that passes the more real it is. Every Sunday I wish I could talk to her like I used to. Just one more time hear her voice. Sometimes just dialing her number makes me feel better. I miss her to so much it hurts, it makes me feel sick to my stomach, and it makes me angry. I guess this is human nature.. so many things I wish I would have done. BUT I know she knew how much I loved her. I know she knew she was so special to me. I wish I could have told her the impact she had on my life, but she knows now right.
When I struggle I always look up bible verses, it is so much easier than opening a bible. I came across this verse, how perfect. I can not imagine losing her before I developed a stronger faith.
(Romans 8:18) 18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which will be revealed toward us.