Lily Grace April 8, 2010

To view it visit – http://www.glimpseofsoulphoto.com/Slideshows/lilygrace2

It will probably ask you to allow add-on. Only thing is people with a Mac can’t see it.

Thank you Eliza for doing this for us!
Glimpse of Soul Photography
"More than just photography, it's a Glimpse of Soul"
www.glimpseofsoulphoto.com
www.glimpseofsoulphoto.com/blog

Lily Grace Hamilton

Two weeks ago today I went into the Dr and he told me I was at 2cms dilated. We knew our little angel would be here soon. It was one long week and a lot of discomfort, but thankfully I have a lot to keep me busy! I went to labor and delivery twice thinking it was time. Both times I was sent home since my contractions were not strong enough to make me dilate any further. I had to be at 3cms to be considered in active labor, my Dr said get to walking. Tuesday April 6th-I went to Body Attack an aerobic class. Wednesday- I walked two miles at the gym and then pushed Ava up to watch Jackson’s Tball practice. That night at about 1:45am I woke up with contractions they were strong and pretty regular. I knew it was time, but I had an 8:00am appt with my Dr so I was determined to hold out. I did not want to go to the hospital until it was really time. I figured I would rather be uncomfortable at home than at the hospital. I never went back to sleep. Ava woke up twice that night wanting to be rocked so I enjoyed the last night with her being the baby of the family. I was at the Dr’s office at 7:30 and when they hooked me up to the monitor my contractions were very regular and strong. My Dr said I had a bulging bag of water and I was at 3cms so off to have Miss Lily Grace I went.

I think I should have stayed on my feet a little longer because as soon as I got in the hospital bed things took a long pause. I was not progressing for awhile. My Dr was supposed to come break my water on his lunch break, but he never got one. My Dr said if I would have stayed out my feet I could have ended up having the baby in the parking lot. Once my water broke we had her in 30 mins!

My epidural wow! This is a story! When the anestiologist put it in he told me he hit the spinal area and I may have a head ache the next day. I thought nothing of it as long as he got the epi was working! When he came in to top me off with a little more meds things took a turn. I was so numb it scared me. I felt so nauseous and my Mom said I went white. Next thing I knew the nurse was there kicking everyone out and she called for back up. We had 4 or 5 nurses turning me from side to side. Lily’s heart rate had dropped way down. The put some oxygen on me and after about 20 mins which seemed like an hour Lily was stable. I how ever was not. My blood pressure dropped to 70 something over 38. So they gave me a couple doses of ephedrine to get it back up. My Dr had arrived, but would not break my water until we were both stable. The ephedrine gave me the shakes and I could not control them. It was really scary for me. I just closed my eyes and went somewhere else. I prayed and I put out my hands and I could feel my Granny and Grandma on each side of me holding my hands. It was a feeling I will never forget.
Okay we were both stable and my Dr came in to break my water and I was 6cms. Well not even 30 mins later I told the nurse I think it may be time. She checked me and I was fully dilated. She said give Lily 5 more mins to come down some more and we will try and push. She was going to go call the Dr and tell him to come back (he had walked to his office in the same building). That nurse did not even make it down the hall and I told Greg go get her now! Greg walked out of the room and I did not think I would make it until they came back. I pushed the call button and told the nurse I was ready to push, he said um excuse me, I said I have to push, you know get the baby out! In the blink of an eye my team was there and Dr John’s walked in. I sure was happy to see him! I was holding my eyes closed trying to concentrate on keeping the baby in until they were ready. I told them I have to push and he said okay give it a try. I pushed once and her head came out. The nurse and Dr J said, whoa, whoa, whoa hold on don’t do anything! The cord was around her neck and once he got it off I pushed once more and she was out!

My heart skipped a beat when I saw her. She was here and she looked healthy!! She was born April 8, 2010, 6:44 pm, 5 lbs 15 ounces, and 19.25 inches long (My original due date was April 28th). She was simply perfect! She wanted to eat right away and is a natural at nursing.
The next day that head ache came and that was an under statement! I could not sit up or stand it was so bad! The only thing that helped was to lie flat. I had spinal fluid leaking from were he messed up my epidural. They did what is called a blood patch. They went back in and did another epi and at the same time took blood from my arm to inject into the hole. The blood clots and the spinal fluid stops leaking. In an instant I was 100% better! Okay that was not so bad! I felt great, had a great birth, and was happy to go home! The only thing I was sad about was the thought of not seeing my Dr and his nurses anymore. The over exceeded any expectations I could have ever ever had in a practice. And well you all know me I can be a little high maintenance. I seriously could not find one negative thing to say about the office. He is a phenomenal Dr and I feel like God placed me with him. I can not imagine going through the pregnancy I had with anyone else.
Once we got home I went to the Er twice and ended up with having to get another blood patch. Today it has been one week since my sweet girl was born and I feel like I blinked and a week went by. I had a hard pregnancy and a hard (really hard) first week recovery, but an amazing labor. I had an amazing Dr and staff to take care of me and we have an amazing perfect angel. This was in no way my plan, but it happened. God’s plan was way better than mine because this little girl is pretty dang perfect!
I was also blessed to have my friend Eliza there with us! She gave us the gift of a life time so please if you have ever considered this check her out! I can not wait to see the rest of what she captured for us.
http://www.glimpseofsoulphoto.com/blog/

4 years old and 18 months

We are running little behind, but hey we have an excuse!

Jackson turned 4 last month and Ava is almost 20 months, but we had their well checks today. Ava got one shot and did not shed a tear. She is a little pistol! She has had a runny nose for over 5 months and I am happy he put her on some allergy meds. She also has her third ear infection, most likely from all the drainage. I was so happy she had only been on antibiotics once at a year, but we have been hit with two more ear infections the last few months. She is way advanced on her vocabulary putting two and three words together which is a 2 year old skill. She has quite the personality and she is just fun to be around! You will most likely she her with night night aka her little blanket these days. I am afraid she is her Mothers daughter ;). My family will so get that!

Ava stats

34 inches tall and in the 97%

26 pounds and in the 75%

her big head was in the 97th :(

Jackson bless his heart got 4 shots today. I had prepared him against Greg's wishes. He thought we should not say anything, but I have been preparing him for about a month. I am so glad I went with my Mommy gut! When it was time and he said what are you guys doing to me, I replied it is time for shots like we talked about. He did not freak because he knew what was going on. He did cry, but it was not to bad over all. He is a healthy little boy and doing great! The Dr did not hear his heart murmur, but that does not mean it is gone. We are supposed to go in for a follow up echo this month so I need to get that scheduled!

Jackson's stats

42 inches 75%

39 lbs 75%

BMI 16 (wouldn't that be nice)!!

Lily Grace is still cooking!! I am praying she waits for my AMAZING Dr to get back in town Monday! I am 2cms dilated and quite uncomfortable. I am going to rest this week end and stay bust next week. She will be here before we know it so I am enjoying this time. We are having 15 family members here for Easter so it should be tons of fun (and tons of eating)! Happy Easter!!

Jackson is 4

http://www.kodakgallery.com/gallery/creativeapps/slideShow/Main.jsp?albumId=833192471310&ownerId=11712819110

We are blessed with amazing family and friends! Jackson had a birthday party with about 25 kids last week end followed by a family dinner. Today we went to the park, McD's, and Toys R Us for his actual birthday. He is lucky to be surrounded by so many who love him! The best part was having our family here to celebrate with us. Four years ago today God blessed me with the greatest gift of life, my first child.

"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,The fruit of the womb is a reward."
Psalm 127:3

Update

Everything from my ultra sound looks great! I am super excited to also say Lily Grace is head down!! Now let's just pray she stays this way! Only 5-7 more weeks and we will be meeting our precious baby girl!!

Jackson is going to be 4 years old this month. Can you believe that? Where did the time go?!

32 weeks

I have not updated in a quite a while for me :). I went in for an ultra sound today for several reasons. I had to go to the hospital since they were looking at several things. The tech really can't tell you anything so I won't find out anything until maybe Monday or Tuesday. We did find out that Lily is in breech position. Please pray with us that she turns and I won't need a c section. I don't care how many people say it is not that bad, I DO NOT want one! I know I should not worry about how they get her out as long as she is healthy. At this point we still have a lot unknown about that as well. I just want this to be over. I am so grateful my life is so full and keeps me busy so I don't have time to really worry! I will update soon. Oh and Lily Grace is weighing in at 4 lbs!

Amber

Happy Birthday!

I will one day print and make this book into a blog for our kids. I want them to know how special my Grandma was and how much she meant to me. She had such a huge impact in my life. She was the only person I have ever trusted 100% and the only person I ever will. January 11th is her birthday. I know in my heart tomorrow will be the best birthday of her life..rejoicing in his kingdom! Happy Birthday Grandma!

1 Thessalonians 4:13-14 NIV
Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him

5 months

Where to begin! Things have been so crazy here!! I guess it started the day before Thanksgiving; I started having all my wonderful Crohn’s symptoms again. As it continued I decided Monday after thanksgiving to try and get into a Dr. My OB really wanted me to see a GI Dr and so off I went on Tuesday. Well he was a complete jerk. If you have not heard this story, sorry I can not bring myself to go back to it. It upset me so bad! Basically he told me I was high risk, at risk for miscarriage and I was beyond his practice, and I needed to go some where else. That was after he told me I should have been treated before I thought of getting pregnant. Need less to say I walked out with my mouth on the floor and got to my car and cried. I was so shaken. My OB’s office was appalled and again went over and beyond to help me. They spent all day finding a GI Dr to treat me. My OB saw me Wed and apologized over and over for what I was going through. They got me in with some one Thursday and he was great. He assured me there is not any thing that connects Crohn’s to miscarriage! The only concern at this point is I am again not getting enough nutrition, the baby could be under weight/malnutrition, and it could increase my chance for pre term labor. So he put me back on the steroids this time for 3 months. It has been a hell of a few days as they are not working yet. I know they will so I am looking forward to feeling better. This time he put me on another drug with them. It will help my Crohn’s stay in remission once we get this flare up under control. So I am on a ton of drug for the next 3 months (4 steroids, 8 pentasa, zofran, and progesterone shots). I also am starting progesterone shots this week. I will get them weekly in hopes to avoid pre term labor. Since I started dilating so early with Ava and the other risk of pre term labor my Dr is not taking any chances. I assure you I can not end up on bed rest again this time! These last few months have been a true test of faith. I could not have made it with out it and the help of Greg’s Mom this last week. She came out three days in a row so I could go to three Dr’s appointments (THANK YOU). This week we go back to the high risk Dr for another level two ultra sound. They will check again to see if Lily has any markers for Down’s. I will also see my OB again as he is seeing me every week or every other. Please continue to pray for us as I believe they are what carry us through.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, we sure did!! Jackson is still talking about our Thanksgiving party! We had some of Greg’s family here to celebrate the day and help us eat the enormous amount of food Greg and I made! It was very special for us to start making memories at our house with some of our family! I hope to have many more holidays like this and our doors are always open to all!! SO on that note we will be home all day Christmas Day and hope to see some of you come over even if it is for a short visit!! There will be lots of food I assure you of that!
On another note I am sick again. It all started the day before Thanksgiving, yuck! All of the unpleasant signs of my Chron’s are back! I have been throwing up in the middle of the night too. I called the Dr on Saturday to see if he was on call, but he wasn’t. I called first thing this morning to get back on the steroids if that tells you anything. I am so anti steroids, but I refuse to let it get so bad I end up back in the hospital. I feel like a wet noodle! I have no energy and just want to do nothing. It makes me feel so guilty that I am not out enjoying my kids and doing fun things with them. There have been several days in the last 10 we have not been out of our pj’s..YUCK! I am waiting on a call back from the nurse. I see my Dr on Thursday, but did not want to wait that long to start the steroids. I hope getting on a low does will do the trick with out too many horrible side effects. I figure I would rather gain a lot of weight and have horrible acne than feel the way I do. Plus the meds give me a ton of energy and I get so much done! When you only sleep 4 hours a night there is a lot more time in the day! I have been doing a lot of research and from what I have found Chron’s either stays in remission while you are pregnant or can flare very bad. I guess I was just lucky with my first two! It also says that it is highly unlikely for a flare up to get better until after you deliver. Oh and steroids are really your only option while pregnant. On a positive note I am half way there!! In 19 weeks give or take we will have Lily Grace here with us! I go see my Dr on Thursday and the high risk Dr next Wed. I also get another level 2 ultra sound so we will get to see this pretty girl again!

It's another GIRL!!!

We just got home from seeing the genetic counselor (see previous post). She informed us that if you put 300 babies in a room with Down's half of them would have shown something else (such as clef pallet, fluid in the kidney, heart defect, web feet) on ultra sound. The other half would not. Our baby shows none of those things, but she can not tell us she does not have Down's. She has a half of a percent. She said we would have to decide if the amnio is right for us. I decided to take some time to see how at peace I am with the info we have today. I still feel like I want definite answer so I can prepare and educate myself more if need be. It is just something Greg and I have to decide on our own. Welcome to our family Lily Grace!!

Tomorrow

Life has a funny way of teaching you things! As you all know I had no intentions of becoming pregnant this time. It hit me out of know where and hit me hard. I was at a place in my life where everything seemed perfect. I had two healthy beautiful children, we were recovering financially from several things, I was recovering emotionally from the death of my best friend my Grandma, I was training to run a half marathon, and working on hitting my goal weight by my 30th birthday in December. For once in many many years it was all about me. God had other plans I suppose. It took me several months to deal with being pregnant. It did not help I got so sick I lost 19 pounds in 3 weeks, took a trip to the hospital for a quick stay, and have been on steroids for 3 weeks! I was finally feeling normal again. I am not sick, feeling full of energy, and appreciating the little things. I accepted God had given us a gift. This pregnancy has already made me so aware of so many things. My house will not always be perfect, it will not always be clean, I can not always make it to the grocery store, or make dinner, I won’t always make swim lessons, or Little Gym, and things will not always be prefect. I have learned just to go with the flow as the days go by and enjoy what each day brings me. I feel so much more calm and peaceful as silly as that may sound.
Thursday we were thrown a curve ball when I received a call from my Dr’s office. My blood test came back positive for Down’s syndrome. I felt as if someone was sitting on my chest and I could not breathe. My Dr had Greg and I come in immediately that day so he could give us some facts. He said my test came back 1 in 180 and he personally had never seen anyone with those numbers actually have a Down’s baby. There are false positives all the time. We have an appointment tomorrow with a genetic counselor who will give us more information. We then have an appointment for a level two ultra sound. Half of Down’s baby’s show some kind of mark on ultra sound indicating Down’s (half do not show sign’s). We also have an amnio scheduled and this is the only real way to know. Greg does not want me to have it done as it has a less than 1% chance of miscarriage. It is complete safe procedure, but he is against it. I am for it, if that is what the specialist thinks we should do. I want to know what we are dealing with and I want definite answers. Last night we went to eat dinner and we saw a little girl about 2 with Down’s. I think it was a sign. This child was beautiful, healthy, and her family looked so happy. You could tell the joy she brought to them. I know what ever the out come is God has chosen us for this child and he will lead the way.
So please pray for us. Pray that the Dr’s guide us to a decision we both are comfortable tomorrow and for the health of our baby. We have decided on names as well and will know tomorrow if it will be Brody Michael or Lily Grace.

15 months Ava Bear

Sweet Ava had her 15 month well check today. She was 32 inches putting her in the 97% for height. She weighed almost 25 pounds which puts her in the 80%. She is healthy as can be!!

Yay for GREAT news!!

I just got back from the Dr and I gained 2 pounds!!! He was happy so I am HAPPY!!! The baby had a great heart beat as well. I have to weigh myself every day and if I have any loss call, but other than that I don't go back for two weeks. He may be able to take a peek at the sex then, but if not we have our BIG ultrasound scheduled for Nov 30th. How exciting! I finally feel pregnant and not sick. I think my rounding belly may have something to do with this :). I am ready to enjoy and savor every minute of this last pregnancy I will have. I know God has blessed us in ways I did not understand at first, but now are becoming more clear. Thank you for all the support! Oh and most important the steroids have not turned me into a complete physco yet!! Only 15 days left!!

I am home

I am home and so glad to be here!! I had a good day and kept all food down. They had me on a very high dose of steroids and now switched me to oral one's. My GI Dr wanted me on them for three months and I cried when my OB told me that. He said he re wrote the orders for 21 days. We will see how I do then, I may have to go back on them. We are just going to hope for the best right now and take one day at a time. If you know anything about prednisone (steroids) you know it is NO fun. I am already feeling very irritable and could cry if you asked me too. It makes you a miserable person. I was very hungry this am, but have not seen a ravenous appetite yet, but it will come. I need to gain 12 pounds at least in 21 days. Please just pray that I make it through these 21 days with out too bad of depression or irritability. I also am really hoping my Chron's is not acting up as it has been in remission since I was 17. I see the Dr weekly so he is taking good care of me. I just love him! He is so caring and very compassionate! I know I am in good hands!!

Hospital Stay

I went in to see my Dr today since I am sick yet again. I am down another 3 pounds which makes a total of 19 pounds in six weeks I have lost. So he admitted me into the hospital. For those who don’t know I have Chron’s disease. I have not had any problems since I was 17 or so. It never really crossed my mind that it may be my Chron’s acting up. I saw a GI Dr today while in the hospital and he said my stomach is very tender. It could be the Chron’s, but we have no way to know since they can not do any further testing right now. He wants me on steroids through the IV so I have to stay in the hospital. He said a few days, but my OB said if I have a good night and day tomorrow he will try and get him to switch me to oral steroids so I can go home. The steroids are really a win win with me. Even if it is not the Chron’s it the steroids will help the nausea and help me gain some weight. That is all I know for now.

It's Fall

I can't believe it is fall, maybe because it is so dang hot here!! Today is the first day we all put on long sleeves. Let me just tell you if it drops below 70 everyone in Houston cranks the heaters. OMG every where we went today we were so HOT!! Can you believe Christmas is only two months away? I usually have most of my shopping done and I only have 4 out of 21 people done ahhh!! I am usually anti toys for my kids, but this year is different. Jackson some how became a little boy over night. Instead of toddler toys, he wants big boy toys (and legos those small one's LAWD help us). Ava is always playing with boy toys so it is time we added some babies and pink stuff to our house. We made wish lists at Toys R Us and they are the greatest things ever! Jackson made his on his own and had a great time adding his wants!! I wish everyone would make one of these to make my shopping easier!! We have so much fun stuff coming up. This week end we are headed to Dewberry Farms which is a pumpkin patch. We have family pictures next week end, Dallas the week end after that for Alyssa's bday, and Thanksgiving at our house!! I can't believe I am saying this as I never thought the day would come! We are having a holiday in our very own home AND we have some family coming!! Nothing makes me happier as I would love for our kids to remember holidays in our house verses running all over town to different places!! I can not WAIT!!!! Oh and I almost forgot I got to go with my #1 Baby Boo to his fall field day. Real quick I have to tell you Jackson has always been my Baby Boo and he asked me if Ava was my Baby Boo too. I told him yes, but he is my #1 Baby Boo. He will never let me forget to say #1 before I call him Baby Boo now :). Anyway I will send out the pictures from his fun day at school. I treasure these kind of events with him! I adore him!

Second Trimester

I am feeling much better. I am only throwing up maybe every other day versus every time I put something in my mouth. I lost another 2 pounds as hard I tried to gain (makes a total of 16 lbs). I have never in my life had this problem! I ate before I went, held my bladder, and kept my shoes on err!! He was happy with where I am so YAY!! He said if it gets any worse I must call and go in. If all stays the way it is I don't go back until Nov 12th. I got the best news of all, I get to go back to the gym!!

How cute are they?!!

I don't think I have seen anything cuter! Just a few pics to share!

Thinking baby

Honestly I don't think being pregnant has really sunk in for me. I feel like I have just been really sick for two weeks! I have thought of names here and there, but have not decided on anything. Greg and I have much different taste!! He told me when we found out I was pregnant this time I get to name the baby (yeah right)! We each have a favorite out of these top picks so far. Today is the first day I really seriously thought about it though. There could be many more polls!! HOWEVER one of these names could be for Baby Hamilton. If you choose to participate please vote and leave only NICE comments. I do realize we all don't have the same taste, but this is our baby :). We don't want to hear negative comments! This should be fun!!

http://www.babycenter.com/403_name-baby-hamilton_10737149_13564499213.bc

Copy and paste the link and vote!

11 weeks

What a difference a Dr can make! I feel like I am on a high! Not only did I have my first day of NOT throwing up yesterday, but I got a new Dr! He is AMAZING!! He was compassionate, listened not just heard me, responded, and was actually concerned about me! I have lost 14 pounds in less than 2 weeks!! The only reason he is not starting treatment right now is because I had a good day yesterday. If I lose any more weight this week and continue to throw up he will start me on steroids. That will help kick the nausea and make me hungry! I go back and see him next Thursday. I feel like my body may be turning a corner on its own though. He said my body just is not responding to the increase of hormone levels. Normally is levels off by 13 weeks and I am almost 12. He did say some women have it through out the entire pregnancy, have to be hospitalized, feeding tubes, zofran pumps, etc. He is going to check where I am next week and see where we go. I really feel like I am on the mend. I have half of my stress lifted by just finding a new Dr. His office staff was over the top professional and friendly (what a change from the last Dr I had). The office itself was top notch and all the equipment was new and updated (another change from my last Dr). He seems to be much more established than my last physician. I was very worried about going to a man, but he was very caring. He has four daughters and you can tell, very gentle man! He is very conservative as he was in the navy! He went to Yale and has been around a while. I just feel so blessed to be in good care!! Did I mention his nurses where SO nice?! Our baby looked like it had a huge head and a tiny little body. The picture again looks like a blog because this baby was on the move. It looked like it was doing aerobics!!